mental masturbation

In my life, I’ve noticed that my net karma is always zero. If something bad happens then something good must happen and vice versa. This week had many downs and one huge up. I’ve been incredibly stressed out with finals and keeping up my grades and the decision of my appeal to Cal Poly SLO. Then this Monday I was told that my grandma had breast cancer. On Tuesday I found out that it is very treatable and not aggressive which is a relief.
As days went by, I became more nervous and anxious to my appeal decision seeing as I should have found out last week.
Well, for the last two years I’ve had such an uphill battle with this community college system. I’ve never fought for anything harder. But pierce had a way of destroying all the hope I had of attending a university. When I found out my admission was rescinded, I could only say, “of course”. Because as I learned at Pierce, if you ever want something to go your way it most likely won’t.
But for the first time in such a long time, I finally have hope. I’m scared but excited of what is yet to come. But my acceptance to Cal Poly is my first step to being where I want to be.
For the first time in my life, everything is falling into place, and my net karma seems to be developing a positive trend.
And even though I’m not done with finals, I feel such content for where I am right now and where I am headed.